another good lesson for me

Another A Course in Miracles lesson, a lesson I had to stay with for a couple weeks comes to mind. One lesson asks the student to think of someone they have been unable to forgive, bring an image of that person into our thoughts and keep looking at the person until we can see light emanating from their being, from their heart and than expand the light through the whole visage of that person. Then the lesson says "you know who the right person is, it is the first person you thought of when you read this but you probably rejected that person for the lesson. That person, the one you thought of first, that's the right one for this lesson.

I was only a few years past my divorce and past the incident of abuse my ex inflicted on our then-five-year-old. He had immediately come to mind as someone I was unable to forgive. When I envisioned him, I barely saw him, I only saw darkness. So he was the right one for that lesson.

Day after day, for weeks, I would begin my day with meditation and end the meditation by doing an exercise. This exercise got me stuck. For weeks, I tried to envision my ex-husband in my mind, to see even a hint of light, in the vision of him in my mind's eye.  I doggedly stuck with it.

Of course, I slowly became able to see light, first emanating from his heart area, and, eventually, I could see him surrounded by light.

I sometimes return to this lesson nowadays when I feel stuck on some negative thinking in relation to someone.