fear is suppressed hate

Two things must be completely avoided during occult training.
We should never harm anyone through deeds, thoughts or words
intentionally or not.Secondly, the feeling of hate must disappear
in us, otherwise it reappears as a feeling of fear; for fear is suppressed hate.

We must transform the hate into a feeling of love, the love of wisdom.
Rudolf Steiner

 I am a lonely traveler. I have harmed people I love and they abandon me. I am weak. I am flawed. But I feel no hate and no fear. I forgive myself even if any I have harmed cannot. In doing so, I transform my flawed self into a loving one.